Don't Say You Love Me.

As I sat around the office this morning wondering what to blog about, I realized what today's date signifies. Today, 08/25, is my parent's 20th wedding anniversary. The fact that the divorce rate nowadays is so much higher than the marriage rate makes me proud to say that my parents remain together even after having gone through so much. However, even while having a prime example of love right in front of me everytime I come home from work or school, I am still a HUGE skeptic of love. Even when I was a little girl, I never dreamed of finding my prince charming and getting married. Love has always seemed so far out of reach to me. I've gone through some boyfriends and although I've loved some much more than others, I've only been in love with one, and it didn't work out well. I know I haven't lived much seeing as I just recently turned 19 a couple of weeks ago, but I guess I just doubt too much. And I'm not saying I'm an easy person to love either. I've hurt some people that I never meant to hurt, but I've hurt too. I've accepted it as part of life. I think I'm just sorely disappointed because there are so many things I want love to be. And then I change my mind when I get it! Yes, girls really are confusing. We don't really know what we want. But guess what? Neither do guys!  Now don't take this post as a sad part of my life. Its not. Right now I know its hard for me to believe theres someone out there, but the way life goes, I could be totally in love next month. <3

Although I'm weary about love, don't fear guys. I think I've matured a lot over the years. For this love, I'm giving my all. But just remember. Don't say you love me, if you don't love me at all.

I'm out to lunch. :]